RANT RANT RANTS

Another post for today. This is simply because i am unhappy.
I feel that i am a middleman in between my friends and this sucks? It is so hard to stand in between them, so difficult. First i have to worry about how the other friend think, second, my friend might have think i had told my other friend the things she said. Eh what the hell seriously, i'm not this type of person. I feel that when we are growing older and at different place we can never meet new friend but just friend who talk nonsense. Real friends are the only friends that exist during our primary/secondary school days. The friends i made now feels as though friend for school only. I am not standing side is because i treated all as my friends and probably because of my friend i drift pretty alot with a friend i used to talk alot during our 1/2 semester. Although she might not understand the society, at least i know that we have a common topic. I really hates it when i am taken for granted. It is not like i have treated anyone badly, do i even deserve all this shit? Please when you needed help people helped you, when you don't need you KICK them aside. I really don't like saying all this thing. If you are impatience fuck that man? I know its irritating to repeat twice, that doesn't mean i didn't do it and for that i didnt even give an attitude. IF i can heard properly, see properly, FLAWLESS be there for class i wouldn't even ask for a favour. You don't even appreciate what people did for you, why am i being so kind and help? Fuck you because i treated you as a friend. It's not my choice to ask a question, you know what i miss my friend who left school not long ago. She indeed helped me alot more than you did although i knew her only during sem2. I may have seen like kind and high tolerant, i have my limits too. I didn't wanna say bad about anybody is because i don't think i need to talk about it and who am i to judge? And what for? You don't gain a sympathy or anything at all. You said it because you think you are so perfect. To be honest, i am a spoiled girl once too. Tell me who is not? I am still a spoiled girl now, it is just that i know the reality of life i changed but at times i still need to be loved. There is alot of stuffs we had to be understandable. Put yourself in their shoes to feel how is it like.

People are so judgmental?

So true.
Part of the growing up stages, i saw many and heard many. It's so true that people don't see the part where they are the worst and they just keep judging. Do you really think that you are so damn good that you can judge people? Are you really flawless? No one is flawless, and no one is to judge. 
People judge because they are jealous. No? Yes, well if they deserve what they deserve, they deserved. Don't be jealous. All you can do is to think that they are lucky i am not lucky. 
Don't be surprise that your best friend, bff, boyfriend, girlfriends judge at you because you judged at them too. Whats so nice to be competitive? It's not like you would gain anything but just good grades. So what if you have good grades but you are a judgmental person?
To be honest, i am judgmental too and i could be at my worst and i realize it myself too and actually i feel guilty for what i had did. But what if you are judgmental and doesn't realize it yourself? Then i think that you think too highly about yourself. When you are right, you talked more but when you wrong what do you do? You either remain silent, change talking topics, avoid or act like nothing happened. How ironic right? 
You boast like you are the top of the world, but when you are wrong you act like you are still at the top of the world.

"Learn to balance, if it something to be proud of, be proud of it, if it is not something to be proud of, keep it to yourself."

I think this apply only to people who wishes to change for the better. I realize that a person who like to complain so much cannot do this. No? I am judging here right now, but i think this is so true because i see it myself.